Understanding where she fell in this ranking system was vital to her survival in some ways. I think that my mom learned that being beautiful could secure her safety in her relationships and day-to-day interactions. And I started thinking about how I had gotten there. I wanted to see who was getting ahead or who was last. I would look up their Facebooks and never look at my ex-boyfriendsвЂ™. ex-boyfriends in high school, I would think more about their ex-girlfriends than I would them sometimes. If you hear that at a young age, it fucks you up.Д®mily Ratajkowski: I had to work backward in even figuring that out. There were beautiful women and then there were hot women and all those micro-rating systems within. Lisa Taddeo: You write about your mom rating womenвЂ™s beauty. Here, the two sit down for a no-holds-barred dialogue. If Ratajkowski had a kindred literary spirit, it would be Lisa Taddeo, whose nonfiction account of womenвЂ™s sex lives, Three Women, and raw novel Animal cover many of the same themes.

вЂњItвЂ™s been the blessing and curse of my life.вЂќ That scrupulous excavation is evident in My Body, her scalpel-sharp essay collection examining everything from sexual assault to childbirth to objectification. вЂњI want to get to the bottom of things,вЂќ says Emily Ratajkowski.

Collage artwork by Monique Baumann Photo: Steve Shaw/treats! Magazine.

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